Silence

So, I’m pass the emotional breakdowns, and slowly, but surely catching up on a month of no sleep. Soul searching, hoping creativity knocks on my door and takes over until life has put some time between my present thoughts, and whichever way I find a genuine intent to move on. I refuse to numb. I chose to spiritually fight through the emotions, unsure of what will be on the other side, embracing each stage to the best of my ability, right now it seems like my tears are dry, but I know better, this is not my first experience swallowing the blows, the transition of pushing feelings down your throat, the faking til you make it, the waiting for your favorite weather as proof that the dates will soon change, and just maybe by then, this silence won’t be so intense, my smile won’t be so fake.