What are you feeding your soul???

I’m asking based on my own experience. Today, I am finally feeling lighter and more at peace, but it was a process which took some weeks. Oh it’s so easy for me to isolate and indulge in the pain, even the parts I know I don’t and will never have any control over. When the hurt is deep breathing becomes a mission, getting out of bed, and finding the motivation to function as the best version of me. The memories start consuming my days, and I dig the knife deeper going through the details over and over again in my mind, as if that has the power to change a thing. I was desperate, my soul knew that once again life was hardening my heart, I was in the dark blocking true gratitude for my blessings, blocking any new blessings from making themselves known, and worst of all, my feelings/attitude/moves/silence was affecting the way I was touching other souls. How could I feed you light/inspiration, if I was sitting in the dark??? How could I give from an empty place? How could I preach life meanwhile dying every minute of every day I spent drowning in misery? I had some work to do. This is life or death for me, because depression is not something to play around with. I don’t want to just exist! I like my presence to be known, and I like to use it to lift other spirits. I began by spring cleaning, because my home was starting too look like the way I was feeling inside. I created projects which had nothing to do with my daily routine, to help me focus/think/meditate, and accomplish something meaningful to me (I’m almost done giving my living room and home office a revamp). ALWAYS, most important, not only did I pray more, but also visited church pleading with God, for the peace that only God can grant me. I started teaching a class (servicing others) is a good positive way to get out of your funk. I’m still dealing with my broken heart, but by changing what I was feeding my soul, I am finally genuinely ready to continue this journey called “life” and pursue God’s purpose for me. If you are reading this and it seems like life is hitting harder than usual, change the narrative by taking the time for “self-care”, because we all have a job to do, and a mark to leave, before we leave earth, and whenever we allow life/depression/doubt/anxiety/past/pain get the best of us, we are wasting precious time. God Bless.